sometimes

i feel so alive.
im so relaxed at the moment, playing the maine because i know how much amanda and carly loved them this summer and how i wouldn't try too hard to get into them.
makes me sad though.
I MISS YOU ALL. so much.
this week of christmas ive been so off and on with emotions.
either i want to be home for christmas, sometimes i dont really mind at all.
sometimes i want to have plans for all my days off, sometimes i don't.
i know that i don't want to spend money that i should be saving for when i go home next week.
on the brighter side, yesterday i worked my butt off then got:
my hair done blonnndddeeeee
a FREE $350 snowboard.
and made like $40 in tips.

it was a nice day.
today i made half of that in tips. disappointing. people SUCK at tipping.
i say 'happy holidays' for a REASON you fools!

i.cannot.wait.to.return.home.

im hoping it will be more than im expecting. so great.


happy god damn christmakah.