today is another day..

i find myself missing...longing for.
its really pathetic. but when you know of things going on back home with people that mean the most to you, its hard to be so far away.
i think this like two weeks in a row working has already started to get to me...and i haven't even got through half of it yet. two days of not getting paid, but taking my days off to go learn. i know i shouldn't even drop the least bit of complaint about having to do that, but really. its hard right now i guess. and i'm not even going to say that i'm "burnt out" because as i learned last week, there is no such thing when you've only been doing this for a short period of time.
ugh i dont know. im just frustrated. and always tired. it never fucking ends.
i continuously having the feeling that i need to meet more people and get out more but there are SO many obstacles in my way. its annoying and agitates me more than ever.


ugh. im going to do laundry, clean a little, then pass the hell out.